Saturday, July 26, 2003
had another arguement with ck the night before yesterdae...n den she wldnt pick up my call. left her a text the followin morning..." was such a jerk last night, sorry..really do love you". texted a few more msg later on..
by late afternoon, the truth sank in.she sad "you do've a certain place in my heart"
bullocks i say. now why do i say tat...simply becuz she later told me this..her exacts words was "Perhaps, still dont understand y one dont go ahead with other girls who will suit u better." IS TAT REJECTION LINE or i'll be damned.
slowly though it dawned onto me that maybe im just not the kind of guy that she needs, and even if we were together...its unlikely tat it will be enjoyable... well maybe it will for a short while..but the differences between us is too great. so thats it....it hurts no doubt...as surely as rising of the sun every morning...given that she has had a place in my heart fer the past couple of years. then again, havin said that..i'll have to move on and beat it...stagnation isn't and never will be an option for me.
if the truth be known, i've actually got it good goin fer me...my life i mean. hell yeah.. so today..im lookin good..nice tan n stuff. yet crushed inside........ back smokin again..but its in control...as in like 1 or 2 stick a day..as compared to 20/day? but to kick it all requires great will on my part...of which i certainly dont lack.. just need to concentrate and draw it frm within.
Met haze fer a movie the day before, well it doesnt matter...no girls do anymore...well Xj yea..but thats another story. the pt is... im not givin up on ck..dude.. someday she will be mine...i aint no quitter... maybe stand back and chill fer a moment yea..but definately not a quitter. gonna concentrate on my future..gonna get goin..Need a holiday...maybe backpackin in australia... all are invited...anyone? anyone out here in the vastness of cyberspace? nope.. oh well no one..
guess i gonna backpack alone tis time round. ROCK N ROLL NEVER DIES!
by late afternoon, the truth sank in.she sad "you do've a certain place in my heart"
bullocks i say. now why do i say tat...simply becuz she later told me this..her exacts words was "Perhaps, still dont understand y one dont go ahead with other girls who will suit u better." IS TAT REJECTION LINE or i'll be damned.
slowly though it dawned onto me that maybe im just not the kind of guy that she needs, and even if we were together...its unlikely tat it will be enjoyable... well maybe it will for a short while..but the differences between us is too great. so thats it....it hurts no doubt...as surely as rising of the sun every morning...given that she has had a place in my heart fer the past couple of years. then again, havin said that..i'll have to move on and beat it...stagnation isn't and never will be an option for me.
if the truth be known, i've actually got it good goin fer me...my life i mean. hell yeah.. so today..im lookin good..nice tan n stuff. yet crushed inside........ back smokin again..but its in control...as in like 1 or 2 stick a day..as compared to 20/day? but to kick it all requires great will on my part...of which i certainly dont lack.. just need to concentrate and draw it frm within.
Met haze fer a movie the day before, well it doesnt matter...no girls do anymore...well Xj yea..but thats another story. the pt is... im not givin up on ck..dude.. someday she will be mine...i aint no quitter... maybe stand back and chill fer a moment yea..but definately not a quitter. gonna concentrate on my future..gonna get goin..Need a holiday...maybe backpackin in australia... all are invited...anyone? anyone out here in the vastness of cyberspace? nope.. oh well no one..
guess i gonna backpack alone tis time round. ROCK N ROLL NEVER DIES!
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